think it is quite true... today gor dino broke with his gf. i tot they might last long. but... nope, it didn't. his last gf too, seem together for very long, but still break. i guess feelings do fade. today was my first time seeing gor dino so sad and angry, at the same time. i didn't know what to do. i cried when he left. i recalled that the only time i saw him cried was when uncle CL beat the hell out of him when he was in primary school. second was when our neighbour threw a flying kick hard at his face when he was in primary school too. only times. today, he wasn't beaten up or whatsoever. so, i was very scared and worried. i could not concentrate on my maths. i waited for him to come back. gor gor came back and handed me a cookie that was no longer crispy and smelled just like the perfume in our car. but anyway, thanks gor. when gor dino came back, his eyes was wide open, like how he looked at me when i did something wrong and bad. but he smiled at me and gave me a peace. i know he's hiding his feelings... he cannot cheat me, i practically grew up with him. he washed his face and drank water. asked me can i login to audition. then ask if there's any girls i can intro to him... i know he's not serious. now he's out to find his friend. now at least he got his freedom again. with his gf, he nv went out to find his friend. mayb one day, he'll come back and intro his gf again.

ok, let me make this clear... i have total no interest or faith in starting a relationship for now... i want everybody to know especially YOU. stop trying to assume that i'll stead with any random guy that come ask me for it. NO WAY. i hate it when you say if my guy friends "jio me, i'll surely accept de lor". i won't. the same goes for you. i'm not cheap. i don't care you meant it or not... but i'm making this clear now. i won't have any feelings for you, and i'm just treating you like a normal friend. don't abuse it. i don't go for looks, i go for feelings. stop forcing me, will you? i really hate ppl who try to control me in any way... don't force me to a point where i can take no more... at that undesirable point, i'll be capable of doing any crazy random stuff that i won't like doing. i don't need to be specific and there's no need to. i don't know what i'll do, but it won't be pleasant. so stop all these sweet talk with me. i'm not playing you, coz i was never interested in you before. your ex are your ex. you don't understand me, you don't know the reason why, so stop acting like it's ok for me to stead with somebody i have no feelings for. i know that feeling and it totally sucks. i was controlling my words today. friends are friends... friends are not all potential boyfriend material. btw, love,affection,feelings can never be forced out of a person. stop torturing me.